I do not know how to explain things that are happening and that are going on right now. One thing that I have to deal with is the fact that tim and I might be out of communication for a few days well more like a week in may. I really do not want to deal with that. Part of my nightly routine is to talk to him before I go to bed. It helps me sleep. I am trying to go with him, but I have no idea if things will work out. I hope they do. But we will see.

I am also dealing with school work. I really have no motivation to do anything. But I need to focus on things that will help me get thru and finish.